Mom's letter

Dear Gabrielle,
I know how much you want a baby of your own ans how hard you have tried to have one Your Journey has been mine from when the Dr said you couldn't have one. You were only 18 so young to carry the burden. I watched you when your friends started getting married and having children of there own. You were so happy for them but I could see it in your eyes you longed to be just like them. Over the years you worked saved your money until you came to me and said you wanted to adopt a baby. You put your name on the lists. But because your single it was taking to long. Some where you herd about a group of woman who have babies for women who can't have a baby of there own, You put all your hopes and dreams in the matches you had. each one failed you. They took you for your money, your hope and dreams. But you didn't give up you decided to talk to a Dr to see if you could carry yourself. That's where we are now. Your next Journey has started and I'm right here with you to hold your hand if you need it.

Acupuncture

I am taking the estrace pills. I get a little crampy or spasmy after taking the vag pill. They think it is going to work by Feb 17 for a transfer but I still have reservations. My baseline numbers are very very low. I want to go to a new acupuncturist. The one I have isn't that well versed at it yet. I want someone that is experienced in fertility.

cd1

Well I got my period today. Very crampy I want it over so I can start the meds again. I can't sleep and been getting night swets. It's like going through menapause all over again.

Spotting

I am crampy and a little blood on toilet paper today. Looks like tomorrow is cd1. My start of my cycle. YAY I think the red raspberry tea is working. I will call the clinic on Mon to get my calendar and set up for for bw and u/s. EEEEEEEEEE I wanted to come on and jump for joy that it's finally starting.

Just another day

I took the progesterone and estrace yesterday and today. I just wanted to say I took it and looking forward to my cycle coming up. I have been going to a Chiropractor to help fix my back. I have a sciatic nerve in my butt and it gets very painful. The chiro will be there the entire pregnancy to help me function.

Meds Came

My meds came in this week. Also I got some turtle socks. Here they are.

Saline ultrasound

I did my su last mon. It was very uncomfortable and sore. I took a xanex before I went.lol I was late I got the times wrong and was an hour late. It was very informal and the Dr was talking to the u/s tech like she was teaching them about ks. She was as clueless as everyone else. I made it through it. She told me that I need one more period and make an appointment for blood and ultrasound on day 3 to start a cycle. I start meds for that today. But I have been bleeding almost all week since the su. I finally stopped on Sat. Boy have I been sore and dry all week. I took a over the counter stuff for yeast because I was so dry and I ws on antibiotics all week to ward off any infection that might happen from the sa. I feel like the estrace I have been on has been doing something because my boobs have been sore for the last couple of days. I have been taking estrace twice a day since before Christmas. I do hope I can get my lining up high enough so I can transfer by the end of Feb or beginning of March. I want to be pregnant with my surrogate friend A. I haven't told anyone on fb that I am ttc myself yet. They all think I am looking for a new surrogate. I have found some good friends in a private group of infertiles. They have been very encouraging and know what I am going trough somewhat. They have been going through treatments for many years and I am just starting out. So here's to a starting my first cycle today!!!!