He Gave Up

My RE gave up on me after only a week on menopur. He ran a AMH test and it was very low. So the that means I should give up on using my own eggs and go to egg donor. He knows I don't have enough money to afford an egg donor. I have been crying ever since. I calmed down and told a few friends and one told me about an RE in MO that charges lower fees for ivf. It clicked I already talked to him last year when I was trying to decide what to do with my last 2 embryos. He couldn't help me but said to contact him if I needed anything else. So I emailed him last night and he replied this morning. I asked about egg donation but now that I am questioning my own eggs I emailed him back. I am waiting to hear from him if he will take my case.

It's over

I went through all that pain for nothing. It didn't work!!! I knew it wasn't working and it still hurt when I went in for the u/s and saw nothing. I wanted it to work so bad. I had a meeting with my RE in NJ and we decided to start me on Menopur. I had my first shot yesterday. I video taped it for youtube.lol I want to document my journey so that other girls with KS can see it can work if one doesn't then another will. To never give up on your dreams. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f2yl1hhuX34&feature=g-upl

Fun in Boston

I couldn't go to Boston and experience all the pain I did without having some fun. I did have a lot of fun exploring. here is some pictures and a video.

I am a lingerie model at KMart



Beth doesn't like taking showers 

 I met Tammi and the Duo

 China town rocked

 Holocaust Memorial

 My poor arm

 Lizzi Borons house

 Whale Watch

 Happy Memorial Day

 Finagle a Bagel

Video of the Whale

Thur

I have an u/s on thur to see if I have any follicles. I got a call from the Dr in Boston yesterday she said if the meds don't work than the study is over. I am so angry I want to cry. How is it that my body just doesn't want to work the way it's suppose to? I don't feel anything different other than my boobs are a little bigger. I was hoping this would work and I could be pregnant by the end of the summer. I went through all this pain from killing my veins for nothing. I gritted my teeth through the pain and smiled like it didn't hurt but it did and  still dose. I'm not good at words but will do the best I can to get the feelings out. I Have had to stop everything every day at 2:40pm to give blood and it has to be on time and Everyday!!! My super squirter vein is getting scar tissue and they have to use other veins and one blew up and the other is strained because of the other study in MD last month and hurt very very bad giving blood from. I am running out of veins to use. That's all I can say for now because I can't see through the tears!!!